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Name: eric
Country: United States
State: Ohio
Birthday: 3/10/1985
Gender: Male
Interests: flipping switchblades, bowhunting, furry conventions
Expertise: computer hacking, drawing warriors
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
Member Since:
12/16/2003
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| and so, a new year with new beginnings to new endings.
looking back at 2007 i observed a rather full year that brought about tremendous growth and consistent mistakes, a love lost and one found, vocational wanderings and findings, absolutes challenged and balance obtained, post graduate isolation enabling a deeper faith to be found.
for those of you wandering about my career situation, i got a job. its with western & southern financial, a fortune 500 company, and god dropped it in my lap. next week i take examinations to receive my life and health insurance licenses. keep me in your prayers.
its interesting that in not having a steady job for the past 6 months i was able to recently neglect spending time in the word and prayer and blame it on busyness. we tend to be a rather ridiculous creation at times.
i was convicted today about my deficiencies in not giving to the poor, the unloved, the condemned, the lost, the discouraged, feeding the hungry, etc. im specifically called to acts of charity and i have always meant well, planning on helping them eventually, but my actions are again inconsistent with my heart. during college i would excuse performing acts of charity by claiming busyness, but the truth remains that our giving to those less fortunate is an essential part of living out or faith and repeatedly addressed within scripture yet we tend to brush over those verses, looking for what more we can do to invest in ourselves.
im tired of making excuses for myself. this year will be a year of change. bring on the new wineskin that i may be stretched and pushed to a more accurate image of the christ i claim to follow.
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| a lot has happened since my last entry including:
- finding a truly marvelous girlfriend by the name of jani marie troyer
- embarking on a 10 day trip to israel
- losing my camera on the beach in tel aviv (city in israel)
- starting and quitting a job in the same week (i actually just quit today)
- getting the back bumper cover of my car ripped off
so yeah. a lot has been happening in my life. god continues to show me undeserved favor as i live in his grace; i wouldn't want to live any other way.
i decided around a month ago that i really had no desire to be a realtor and that the whole essence of the business went against my very non-dominant personality. so yes, the job search continues once again. the job i briefly worked on this week ended up being a marketing pyramid scheme where i was expected to be at work at 7am and not get back home until after 7pm Monday through Friday, and also work Saturday 8am until 5:30pm. the place of employment was in akron, 30 minutes away so i would be getting up at 5:30 each morning. and what was i doing during those work hours? selling holiday items while walking business to business. after you are trained its all based on commission, but until then you get $60/day. so yeah, they made it seem a lot more appealing than it really was and my body is still recovering from the abuse i put it through all week.
israel was amazing. it wasnt an emotional experience as it was to many of the other church groups that seemed to follow us from site to site. i encountered amazing sights, but nothing furthered my christian belief, as my faith was not built upon actually seeing where they suspect jesus' tomb was or where they suspect the upper room was located. i already knew that they were real. the main issue i dealt with on this trip was witnessing strong christians view the entire bible as completely literal. this became apparent (and troublesome) when we reached the site called armageddon and the book of revelation was talked about in a completely literal sort of way. i bit my tongue and had to place myself away from other people to keep from pointing out my own belief on the matter. i also encountered strong christians who believed that each scripture/lesson/story written in the bible was only limited to the obvious truth it was expressing. personally, i believe that this view would make for a rather boring spiritual life for i believe if allowed to, the holy spirit will lead you to deeper truths pertaining to issues you never thought of when those verses were read previously. he illuminates and brings insight when you allow him to. please, never limit a scripture to its face value. there are deeper, more complex parallels than what you may initially think. and that my friend is what having a relationship with christ is all about.
so for now, if you think about it, keep me in your prayers as far as a full-time job in concerned. i trust that god will provide that job in his timing. when i previously struggled with this issue while first looking for a job, i was reminded of everything my own father does to keep me from falling into harm's way and how much more would god take care of me. humbling. after all god has done for me, i doubt him. i do it everyday. its pride. thinking that i alone need to take care of everything, that i need to be in control, that i must worry about everything until all the issues are dealt with. continue to humble me lord. remind me of your faithfulness and my earthly nature.
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Wheel of Time Series Books 1-10 by Robert Jordan (Wheel of Time, Volumes 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10)
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| and so i return, dearest xanga, to update the world on my life thus far.
a lot has happened since my last post including but not limited to:
- graduating college
- traveling to turkey
- moving home
- buying a house
i have been in a very interesting place. the beginning of the summer found me taking real estate classes (3 weeks, M-TH, 8am-5:30pm) but my trip to turkey kept me from taking the test right away, and then i had to wait to hear back from the state, and now i am struggling with actually studying for the thing.
all this to say that ive been in this transitional period where i do some physical labor helping remodel houses for the old man (i find humor in referring to my dad as such) and rick's business. this transitional period is also an appropriate label as i continue to process everything i experienced overseas and struggle to not forget the illuminating truth that i found there. it is a struggle in the midst of my tendency to become comfortable in america which allows me to plead ignorance to so many of the problems that pervade the outside of north america.
it is very easy for our country to isolate ourselves from the rest of the world as we are also that way geographically and to some extent i believe we will not really experience the impact of those problems we so often hear of, until go over and see them for ourselves.
lately i have also been disgusted at how easy it is for us to swallow whatever the american media tells us, and how i once did. it further strengthens the very prevalent american ignorance, allowing people who once supported a war and called for action to soon after call for it all to end in the midst of a reconstruction. whether you believe in the war or not is not the point but we need to become educated on these issues before we jump on the popular bandwagon or even express our own ignorant, uninformed opinions on the issue at hand.
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